So umm me and my mom were coming home from somewhere tonight and idk what caused it but I started thinking about high school and growing up and stuff. The main thoughts were about my friends or I should say so called friends.
I guess maybe I should start by sourting out the main groups of so called friends I had growing up and in high school.
First off there mwas a certain group of friends I had growing up. And as far as I remember we went to school toghter all of our lives.
Then there was a group that i knew all through out high school cause I joined when I was a freshmen it was the academic team.
Then finally there was a group that i was in for only about 2 1/2 years of high school called fccla.
So now I remember what caused these thoughts I was somewhere and saw someone from the fccla that me and my mom both knew. We both looked her right in the face and she never even spoke to us.
And me and my thought that was weird because she had been my best friend throughout those years in fccla.
So it got me to thinking why would someone like that just not talk to me?
Then I thought about two friends from the group I grew up up with , there was one I rmebered very well I grew up with her all my life from the first bbtist church preschool all the way through high school. How long was that 16 years at least. And well she has been ignoring me also.
At this point I was very frustrated cause it was like well if u cznt trust a friend u had that long and they aren't really ur friend or weren't I meant to say then how will I make any new friends where i live?
And then as I get home it hits me another supposed best friend of mine had also stopped talking to me and has been ignoring me for a while.
And then that's when the pieces feel in place.
Cause you see the won I had known for 16 years and the one that was another supposed best friend of mine had recently become best friends. And they both started ignoring me right around the same time. And then I get to thinking well no one from this group of friends I grew up with really talks to me anymore. Uh huh do u get where I'm going with this? It was that simple it had to been Ingroup/out group mentality was the reason why no one in that group of friends was talking to me anymore.
So I examine the fccla group. Remember that girl I saw earlier tonight and mentioned in the start of this blog. Well it had hit me that once she stopped talking to me everyone I was in fccla with did. Uh huh another case of I group/out group mentality.
So then I realized hey the reason I have basically no friends where i live is because of the ingroup/out group way of thinking.
Now I had to try to figure out what got me kicked out of those groups? Well I'm sure and I'm sry I always say this alot I'm sure the fact that i have recnetrly within the last couple of years came out as an athiest didn't help. So lets examine the two main groups I've talked about.
Now the people I grew up with group well its harder to figure out. I mean maybe the fact that alot of them aren't single anymore didn't help matters. Contorllkng bfs/husband or at least ones that don't want them talking to me. But as far as the best friend who I didn't know for sixteen years but knew since middle school goes well this theory sounds farfetehced because I had been friends with her sweetheart and now husband for a long time. Of course he may i have changed. But that doesn't explain the girl I've know on for sixteen years turning her back on me. Unless either one it was a very good lie for sixteen years or two the middle school girl is now controlling her. I really don't know what it is.
Now lets exmain the fccla group. It could be the boyfriend issue all over again. Of course here is another theory maybe they just used me. Maybe since I was the only male in the group they felt they needed to use me until another one came around. Or maybe it was all a lie from the start I really dont know.
Anyway I those were the thoughts I had tonight. And thonking about those things is why I was and still am a lil down and am hurting a lil tonight.
Now here are the closing thoughts for this blog.
Number one the academic team I was on was the best group I was in cause I basically have a least three friends from that group on my life today.
Number two if u ever wanna tease me about how much I text or am online just rember I bascilly only have three friends left form growing up not counting mom and my family so well I wanna have more people to talk to and be friends with than just three people. Though they are high quality and loyal friends for outlasting people I've grew up with all my life.
Anyway I just felt the Need to write this thanks for reading If u do.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Thursday, October 20, 2011
The Damon Fowler Story and Me
Well it has been a while since i really wrote a blog..so i figured why not compare if you will what damon fowler went to last summer to what im going through right now.
Now in case you don't know the Damon Fowler story here it is. Basically it was getting time for graduation from high school for Damon. And the school had always done a prayer at the ceremony. Well i do believe Damon knew (as most atheists do) that is 100% unconstitutional so he asked them not to do it. And id imagine he was pretty polite about it. Well the local news where he lives gets a hold of the story and runs it. Students everywhere at that school get pissed off cause well the prayer got called off instead there was going to be a moment of silence in its place. Which IMO is pretty fair and right. Although the students didn't see it that way cause most were Christians and any atheist knows how much they love to push their religion into school and force it on other people. Well anyway his parents find out about what he did and by the time he gets home one day all his stuff is on the front porch and they have kicked him out. Yeah so much for taking caring of your son apparently they decided their religion was more important than him. And as if that wasn't bad enough a local teacher at the school where he was says "This is a student who really hasn’t contributed anything to graduation or to their classmates." Oh and as if both those things arent bad enough he gets death threats on top of all that for speaking out. Oh and i forgot to mention the ACLU is the one who was gonna sue them or whatever if they did it but Damon is the one who brought it to their attention. So umm eventually i think someone gave him a place to stay until the graduation. So it gets to graduation Practice and guess what they pray anyway knowing their breaking the law that was basically used to divide people. But oh the story does not end their then we have to deal with the actual graduation So what does the speaker laci do to open it she says “I have something to say. I respect the beliefs of other people, but…” now as the friendly atheist reported the word but in that quote tells you everything you need to know about what is fixing to happen and now as the friendly atheist paraphrased it “I respect other people’s beliefs, but screw you if you’re not Christian. It’s prayin’ time!” and then what happened after that? So they said a prayer for Jesus. Followed by a Moment of Silence (code words for “more prayer”). Followed by the Pledge of Allegiance (which includes the words “Under God”). Yeah that away girl break the Constitution with that prayer and divide everyone up. The worse part is that the paper (the local one for them) said that the gradation was uneventful (yeah uneventful my a** how about breaking the constitution yeah thats uneventful). Oh and this really made me mad at the time when all this was going on the paper went on to say: "Principal Stacey Pullen said earlier in the day that additional security officers were requested because of the outcry by atheists from across the country who sided with the student who filed the protest." (oh yeah cause Christians can send death threats and then all of sudden they need the protection). Oh and one more thing to know about this story Mitzi Quinn, the teacher who trashed Damon in the local paper, was given an award for her “great service.”. How Dumb is that you trash a student and get that type of award!
So what does all this have to do with me. Well for one for anyone who has seen in class and wonders why im so quiet about my my views on religion in real life but outspoken on Facebook and the internet this part of that reason i dont wanna receive death threats from Christians where i live and/or get kicked out of my house. Though i would hope the Christians where i live are alot better than they were in that story. And im honestly pretty sure my mom would not do that (though im not willing to take the risk). Secondly and i'm thankful for this when i graduated we didn't have a prayer at the ceremony (so im thankful that at least when it came to my graduation that they are willing to uphold the separation of church and state around where i live.), but umm i havent went to any others since my own so whether or not they are breaking the law at this point idk. thirdly ik how at least to a certain point how it feels to be teased by your classmates. Believe it or not im an agnostic who became atheist after reading a book. and TBH for most/ if not all of high school career i was agnostic and even then by atleast one class mate if not more i was called evil and was told i was going to hell and maybe some other stuff. Though TBH idr if any others teased me or whatever you wanna call it or not.
Now of course its out there pretty good that im an atheist and always will be especially since i committed the unforgivable sin of denying the holy ghost and could never be a christian again anyway. And BTW im very happy for that. *dances around excitedly* lol.
And now i guess id like to get away from comparing damon's story to mine and go on to my focusing on my own life.
Like i said im pretty sure my mom wont be kicking me out cause of my views on religion and the fact that im an atheist. Now of course i have been teased and whatever else by my own family. One person saying that me being an atheist is a joke. And I had one of my uncles after my family found out that i was one saying oh i have a goat head at my house it would be perfect for you (basically implying that im a devil worshiper). Which to clear this up once and for all an atheist doesn't believe in god, the devil, heaven, or hell. Now what will be interesting to see is whether or not when thanksgiving and well to shorten it x-mas comes around whether or not when i go have dinner for thanksgiving and hang with my moms and dads side of the family whether or not the attacks and/or forcing their religion on me will happen. Though as far as unwrapping the gifts on x-mas and eating and hanging with both sides of my parents families let the forcing and attacking begin im pretty sure it will. Though like i said earlier i hope m family on both sides is better than that. Oh boy i cant wait to see. And the reason im asking this is that i havent really seen some of either side since coming out as an atheist the only people ive really seen are the uncle who attacked me as i told yall about earlier and an aunt whose house i go to every Wednesday to visit.
And of course i already had people in this town trying to force their religion on me two times. Basically once at a prayer circle which my mom quilted me into going to. and then at that same persons funeral that they were praying for. (i wont go into the details here).
Oh and one final point i guess in this rant of mine. I have had a teacher a couple of months back ask me "have you even read the bible?" and at that point i had to tell her no. So a couple of weeks or so ago..i asked my atheist friends if it really was worth reading. One said no it was a waste of time and one said yes it was worth reading so i could know more about it than the people (aka Christians and maybe even my own family) will try to teach me. Now i had asked for a free bible pretty much and one said why not ask my mom and i said i didnt want my family knowing i was reading it because i was scared she would get mad at me for reading it just like a book just like i would any fiction book like Nancy drew or the hardy boys. and that she would think i was wanting to be a christian again. Well umm family and friends ill let the cat out of the bag and just say right now i am reading it and having it read to em through a site called biblegateway.com which version am i reading? im reading the new international version which at the time i asked that question i was told it was the most popular one then later on someone told me no the kings james version was. Well at this point i am reading it even if it aint the version most people in the south would read. So umm if your on my back for not reading it well ive started to at this point im halfway through genesis. And i must say so far it is the only book that has ever made my mind/body go numb with some of the evil i read in it.
Anyway thats my rant for today i jsut really felt like writing a new note/blog since i hadnt in a while. Oh and BTW for those who think me reading the bible is sign that i "wanna be" a christian again it is not thats the further est thing from the truth and i will say it one more time i deny god, jesus, and the holy spirit i am once again declaring my independence from well the stone or iron age and from religion.
ok im done now thanks for reading if you do
-Jamie G.
Now in case you don't know the Damon Fowler story here it is. Basically it was getting time for graduation from high school for Damon. And the school had always done a prayer at the ceremony. Well i do believe Damon knew (as most atheists do) that is 100% unconstitutional so he asked them not to do it. And id imagine he was pretty polite about it. Well the local news where he lives gets a hold of the story and runs it. Students everywhere at that school get pissed off cause well the prayer got called off instead there was going to be a moment of silence in its place. Which IMO is pretty fair and right. Although the students didn't see it that way cause most were Christians and any atheist knows how much they love to push their religion into school and force it on other people. Well anyway his parents find out about what he did and by the time he gets home one day all his stuff is on the front porch and they have kicked him out. Yeah so much for taking caring of your son apparently they decided their religion was more important than him. And as if that wasn't bad enough a local teacher at the school where he was says "This is a student who really hasn’t contributed anything to graduation or to their classmates." Oh and as if both those things arent bad enough he gets death threats on top of all that for speaking out. Oh and i forgot to mention the ACLU is the one who was gonna sue them or whatever if they did it but Damon is the one who brought it to their attention. So umm eventually i think someone gave him a place to stay until the graduation. So it gets to graduation Practice and guess what they pray anyway knowing their breaking the law that was basically used to divide people. But oh the story does not end their then we have to deal with the actual graduation So what does the speaker laci do to open it she says “I have something to say. I respect the beliefs of other people, but…” now as the friendly atheist reported the word but in that quote tells you everything you need to know about what is fixing to happen and now as the friendly atheist paraphrased it “I respect other people’s beliefs, but screw you if you’re not Christian. It’s prayin’ time!” and then what happened after that? So they said a prayer for Jesus. Followed by a Moment of Silence (code words for “more prayer”). Followed by the Pledge of Allegiance (which includes the words “Under God”). Yeah that away girl break the Constitution with that prayer and divide everyone up. The worse part is that the paper (the local one for them) said that the gradation was uneventful (yeah uneventful my a** how about breaking the constitution yeah thats uneventful). Oh and this really made me mad at the time when all this was going on the paper went on to say: "Principal Stacey Pullen said earlier in the day that additional security officers were requested because of the outcry by atheists from across the country who sided with the student who filed the protest." (oh yeah cause Christians can send death threats and then all of sudden they need the protection). Oh and one more thing to know about this story Mitzi Quinn, the teacher who trashed Damon in the local paper, was given an award for her “great service.”. How Dumb is that you trash a student and get that type of award!
So what does all this have to do with me. Well for one for anyone who has seen in class and wonders why im so quiet about my my views on religion in real life but outspoken on Facebook and the internet this part of that reason i dont wanna receive death threats from Christians where i live and/or get kicked out of my house. Though i would hope the Christians where i live are alot better than they were in that story. And im honestly pretty sure my mom would not do that (though im not willing to take the risk). Secondly and i'm thankful for this when i graduated we didn't have a prayer at the ceremony (so im thankful that at least when it came to my graduation that they are willing to uphold the separation of church and state around where i live.), but umm i havent went to any others since my own so whether or not they are breaking the law at this point idk. thirdly ik how at least to a certain point how it feels to be teased by your classmates. Believe it or not im an agnostic who became atheist after reading a book. and TBH for most/ if not all of high school career i was agnostic and even then by atleast one class mate if not more i was called evil and was told i was going to hell and maybe some other stuff. Though TBH idr if any others teased me or whatever you wanna call it or not.
Now of course its out there pretty good that im an atheist and always will be especially since i committed the unforgivable sin of denying the holy ghost and could never be a christian again anyway. And BTW im very happy for that. *dances around excitedly* lol.
And now i guess id like to get away from comparing damon's story to mine and go on to my focusing on my own life.
Like i said im pretty sure my mom wont be kicking me out cause of my views on religion and the fact that im an atheist. Now of course i have been teased and whatever else by my own family. One person saying that me being an atheist is a joke. And I had one of my uncles after my family found out that i was one saying oh i have a goat head at my house it would be perfect for you (basically implying that im a devil worshiper). Which to clear this up once and for all an atheist doesn't believe in god, the devil, heaven, or hell. Now what will be interesting to see is whether or not when thanksgiving and well to shorten it x-mas comes around whether or not when i go have dinner for thanksgiving and hang with my moms and dads side of the family whether or not the attacks and/or forcing their religion on me will happen. Though as far as unwrapping the gifts on x-mas and eating and hanging with both sides of my parents families let the forcing and attacking begin im pretty sure it will. Though like i said earlier i hope m family on both sides is better than that. Oh boy i cant wait to see. And the reason im asking this is that i havent really seen some of either side since coming out as an atheist the only people ive really seen are the uncle who attacked me as i told yall about earlier and an aunt whose house i go to every Wednesday to visit.
And of course i already had people in this town trying to force their religion on me two times. Basically once at a prayer circle which my mom quilted me into going to. and then at that same persons funeral that they were praying for. (i wont go into the details here).
Oh and one final point i guess in this rant of mine. I have had a teacher a couple of months back ask me "have you even read the bible?" and at that point i had to tell her no. So a couple of weeks or so ago..i asked my atheist friends if it really was worth reading. One said no it was a waste of time and one said yes it was worth reading so i could know more about it than the people (aka Christians and maybe even my own family) will try to teach me. Now i had asked for a free bible pretty much and one said why not ask my mom and i said i didnt want my family knowing i was reading it because i was scared she would get mad at me for reading it just like a book just like i would any fiction book like Nancy drew or the hardy boys. and that she would think i was wanting to be a christian again. Well umm family and friends ill let the cat out of the bag and just say right now i am reading it and having it read to em through a site called biblegateway.com which version am i reading? im reading the new international version which at the time i asked that question i was told it was the most popular one then later on someone told me no the kings james version was. Well at this point i am reading it even if it aint the version most people in the south would read. So umm if your on my back for not reading it well ive started to at this point im halfway through genesis. And i must say so far it is the only book that has ever made my mind/body go numb with some of the evil i read in it.
Anyway thats my rant for today i jsut really felt like writing a new note/blog since i hadnt in a while. Oh and BTW for those who think me reading the bible is sign that i "wanna be" a christian again it is not thats the further est thing from the truth and i will say it one more time i deny god, jesus, and the holy spirit i am once again declaring my independence from well the stone or iron age and from religion.
ok im done now thanks for reading if you do
-Jamie G.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Christian Bullshit Debunked? Athiests are the more caring of the groups?
you know how sometimes Christians saying they are more caring than athiests. Or atleast im assuming they act that way sometimes. Well i know now based on some numbers that their attitude and stance is completely wrong.
you see i put a status up last night that said:
"if you care about me..or did at one time like my status i need cheering up im depressed and feel down and alone..also LMS for texting..if u wanna help that way..."
Now you would figure if the thought that Christians are more caring than atheists (which i do believe some of them have that attitude) (by them i mean xtains) then it would seem logical that by putting that status on both my facebooks my old one and this one that my old facebook would blow up with Christians (some of which said they would be my best friend forever and some of which ive went to school with) liking it because they cared about me. And that also very few athiest would like it on my new facebook.
That seems logical giving that attitude that some xtains do have that Christians are more caring than atheists:Right?
well here is what actually happened:
on my old facebook out of 927 friends..only 2 Christians liked that status. Ik i do have some atheists on that one but very few considering most of my atheists friends are on this new one. (of course it was late so if i put that same status up during the day maybe itd be more but id be a doubting tom about that).
on my new facebook out of 260 friends on it 6 atheists and 3 Christians liked the status.
well isnt that strange if u combined the Christians who liked it that would be 5 Christians to 6 athiests.
hmmmm isnt that kinda funny considering that Christians according to them are supposed to be more caring than atheists. Well i guess that is bullshit.
Of course that is scary to me that out of the many Christians i grew up with and or had made through the internet only 5 said they cared or did care about me. While 6 athiests whom ive never met before in real life said by liking that status they cared or did care about me at one time.
Well i guess if i want true loyal friends ik which group to turn to. Of course that saint saying i dont have true loyal friends who are Christians but yea.
Also i guess this could be showing alot about Christians not all of them but a great majority of them where i live. Apparently most of em where i live dedeiced that since they cant get me to convert to what they want me to be they just had no business caring about me since they cant convert me.
like i said it was pretty late at night when this status was published so the results might be different if i put it up this morning and did the counts tonight but idk. Anfd of course there may have been other factors but once again idk.
anyway what are yalls thoughts on this?
-Jamie G.
p.s i appreciate those that do care about me
you see i put a status up last night that said:
"if you care about me..or did at one time like my status i need cheering up im depressed and feel down and alone..also LMS for texting..if u wanna help that way..."
Now you would figure if the thought that Christians are more caring than atheists (which i do believe some of them have that attitude) (by them i mean xtains) then it would seem logical that by putting that status on both my facebooks my old one and this one that my old facebook would blow up with Christians (some of which said they would be my best friend forever and some of which ive went to school with) liking it because they cared about me. And that also very few athiest would like it on my new facebook.
That seems logical giving that attitude that some xtains do have that Christians are more caring than atheists:Right?
well here is what actually happened:
on my old facebook out of 927 friends..only 2 Christians liked that status. Ik i do have some atheists on that one but very few considering most of my atheists friends are on this new one. (of course it was late so if i put that same status up during the day maybe itd be more but id be a doubting tom about that).
on my new facebook out of 260 friends on it 6 atheists and 3 Christians liked the status.
well isnt that strange if u combined the Christians who liked it that would be 5 Christians to 6 athiests.
hmmmm isnt that kinda funny considering that Christians according to them are supposed to be more caring than atheists. Well i guess that is bullshit.
Of course that is scary to me that out of the many Christians i grew up with and or had made through the internet only 5 said they cared or did care about me. While 6 athiests whom ive never met before in real life said by liking that status they cared or did care about me at one time.
Well i guess if i want true loyal friends ik which group to turn to. Of course that saint saying i dont have true loyal friends who are Christians but yea.
Also i guess this could be showing alot about Christians not all of them but a great majority of them where i live. Apparently most of em where i live dedeiced that since they cant get me to convert to what they want me to be they just had no business caring about me since they cant convert me.
like i said it was pretty late at night when this status was published so the results might be different if i put it up this morning and did the counts tonight but idk. Anfd of course there may have been other factors but once again idk.
anyway what are yalls thoughts on this?
-Jamie G.
p.s i appreciate those that do care about me
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
What Annoys Me
Well i decided to make a "list" of what annoys me now this might be updated from time to time or it may not be im not sure yet about that. So first i guess i might well clarify what annoying is.
according to dictonary.com annonying is:
"irritatingly bothersome"
So what is irritatingly bothersome to me?
well alot of things really are.
The first of which is something i saw last night. And possibly see everyday on the interwebs. And that is single girls turning down guys and me because they/i am whatever. Someitmes the complaint is i wont date your so werid or so fat or live to far away. And these coudl be or ik i am good guys ready to spoil them with love anf give them whatever they need. And what do they say they say no cause this guy or you are too fat or live too far away or the one that really annoys me your an athiest and im a chrsitain so we cant date. And yet if you ask them can we be best friend/friends theyll say yes to that. Only to probally but not always complain later on that oh this bf i choose over you is so mean or so not good to me can i use your shoulder to cry on or talk to you about it. And then when you say and would be a good guy to me ill turn you down again because of that same exescuse as before and let the cycle start all over again.
lol you can tell by the length of that thst is realy something that annonys me.
Another thing on the interwebs that really bothers me is people who say no that i wnt be whoevers best friend/friend jsut simply because they know them or whatever. That shouldnt be a good excuse. And then some or atleast i am i tell them everything about me being as open a book as i can be and they still say no using that same idk you excuse.
Those are two things on the internet i see or are a part of all the time that really annoy me to death.
Of curse there is a thrid thing that makes me mad when i see it on the interwebs and that is grammer/spellign nazis. The ones who say oh if you use inter lingo i wont talk to you or ill make fun of you cause i think your stupid. Oh and they think im so much smarter than you cause use internet lingo and i dont. Gosh that really gets me hot under the collar.
Now on to some things that annoy me in real life.
Like how is this for one and i see it sometimes. People who keep their blinkers n all the time. Because if your not turning off dont keep it on. Or also people who dont turn their blinkers on when they are turning off. I mean im a passnager all the time and that still annoys me.
Also to a certain point people who dont pay attetion on the road cause they are their phones all the time. Of course there is a limit to this i mean if they are read light cut em some slack. And also you dont know what they are doing it could be a family emergency for all you know. So yes to a certian point those type of drivers annoy me but those who complian the point of banning all cell use in the car if ur a driver annoy me also.
Girls who say i wont talk to because i have a bf or whatever anoony me also. I mean i had case recently where this girl i grew up with or whose sister i grew up with and i knew her too bascially said even though we were like bro/sis and were the best of friends said no i cant talk to you or even text you or even be friends on facebook anymore cause ive got a bf. HOW STUPID!
Oh yeah and a girl who said that basiclly id be more pleasent to be around if id stop "bithing abut relgion" and her type annony me.
also the ones who say if you dont respect my religion you dont respect me annoy me. I mean come on you can respect somebody without respecting their religion.
thos are jsut a few of the things that annoy me. I have to stop now but you can be sure that there are lots more. Maybe ill update this or maybe i wont idk. Just felt like doing it.
So i guess to do like some people do
What annoys you? Comment on this and tell me
according to dictonary.com annonying is:
"irritatingly bothersome"
So what is irritatingly bothersome to me?
well alot of things really are.
The first of which is something i saw last night. And possibly see everyday on the interwebs. And that is single girls turning down guys and me because they/i am whatever. Someitmes the complaint is i wont date your so werid or so fat or live to far away. And these coudl be or ik i am good guys ready to spoil them with love anf give them whatever they need. And what do they say they say no cause this guy or you are too fat or live too far away or the one that really annoys me your an athiest and im a chrsitain so we cant date. And yet if you ask them can we be best friend/friends theyll say yes to that. Only to probally but not always complain later on that oh this bf i choose over you is so mean or so not good to me can i use your shoulder to cry on or talk to you about it. And then when you say and would be a good guy to me ill turn you down again because of that same exescuse as before and let the cycle start all over again.
lol you can tell by the length of that thst is realy something that annonys me.
Another thing on the interwebs that really bothers me is people who say no that i wnt be whoevers best friend/friend jsut simply because they know them or whatever. That shouldnt be a good excuse. And then some or atleast i am i tell them everything about me being as open a book as i can be and they still say no using that same idk you excuse.
Those are two things on the internet i see or are a part of all the time that really annoy me to death.
Of curse there is a thrid thing that makes me mad when i see it on the interwebs and that is grammer/spellign nazis. The ones who say oh if you use inter lingo i wont talk to you or ill make fun of you cause i think your stupid. Oh and they think im so much smarter than you cause use internet lingo and i dont. Gosh that really gets me hot under the collar.
Now on to some things that annoy me in real life.
Like how is this for one and i see it sometimes. People who keep their blinkers n all the time. Because if your not turning off dont keep it on. Or also people who dont turn their blinkers on when they are turning off. I mean im a passnager all the time and that still annoys me.
Also to a certain point people who dont pay attetion on the road cause they are their phones all the time. Of course there is a limit to this i mean if they are read light cut em some slack. And also you dont know what they are doing it could be a family emergency for all you know. So yes to a certian point those type of drivers annoy me but those who complian the point of banning all cell use in the car if ur a driver annoy me also.
Girls who say i wont talk to because i have a bf or whatever anoony me also. I mean i had case recently where this girl i grew up with or whose sister i grew up with and i knew her too bascially said even though we were like bro/sis and were the best of friends said no i cant talk to you or even text you or even be friends on facebook anymore cause ive got a bf. HOW STUPID!
Oh yeah and a girl who said that basiclly id be more pleasent to be around if id stop "bithing abut relgion" and her type annony me.
also the ones who say if you dont respect my religion you dont respect me annoy me. I mean come on you can respect somebody without respecting their religion.
thos are jsut a few of the things that annoy me. I have to stop now but you can be sure that there are lots more. Maybe ill update this or maybe i wont idk. Just felt like doing it.
So i guess to do like some people do
What annoys you? Comment on this and tell me
What happened to Freinds First Then Dating?.
so i didnt know about this idea of friends first and then dating before. So yea. Then i see a status of someone as im browsing through the interwebz that says where did this idea go? And why isnt it still in practice more? Idk if i could provide those answers but i would like to try to.
So first how this i get introudced to this idea well it was during a time when someone was trying to hoook me up awith their stepsister and i took it too fast in her stepsisters opion by too fast she meant i couldnt even hug her in a friendly way. But noonetheless thats when this idea was introucded to me. Btw me and this stepsister never worked out and never went on a date.
So how would i explain what this idea is? Well its this idea that youve gotta take it painstakingly slowly even though u might already have a crush on them and only be friends for idk how long and only then can you date and even then you might not get a kiss for awhile. atleast thats what i think it is.
So why did it go away well IMO it went away as people got mroe loenly and realized how stupid an idea it was. I mean honestly your gonna make someone who has a crush on you and maybe wants to be with you and treat you right wait for however long. Thats crazy talk!
How does more lonely come into play well if you want someone to cuddle with..or whatever why put up a rule thats says but oh we gotta be friends first and only then can we cuddle. or whatever helps makes whoever not feel lonely.
Of course then again you might think with how long we lvie these days that itd be probally no problem to apply to this rule. Well idk what the answer is to that. I do know that i think its a stupid rule that needs to go away and die.
Of course maybe im jsut angry at cause of that stepsister thing but noonethless...
ik this isnt my best blog...but this rule fired me up...maybe when i get calmed down and can focus more ill come back and make it better. But for now thats all i have to say about this.
So first how this i get introudced to this idea well it was during a time when someone was trying to hoook me up awith their stepsister and i took it too fast in her stepsisters opion by too fast she meant i couldnt even hug her in a friendly way. But noonetheless thats when this idea was introucded to me. Btw me and this stepsister never worked out and never went on a date.
So how would i explain what this idea is? Well its this idea that youve gotta take it painstakingly slowly even though u might already have a crush on them and only be friends for idk how long and only then can you date and even then you might not get a kiss for awhile. atleast thats what i think it is.
So why did it go away well IMO it went away as people got mroe loenly and realized how stupid an idea it was. I mean honestly your gonna make someone who has a crush on you and maybe wants to be with you and treat you right wait for however long. Thats crazy talk!
How does more lonely come into play well if you want someone to cuddle with..or whatever why put up a rule thats says but oh we gotta be friends first and only then can we cuddle. or whatever helps makes whoever not feel lonely.
Of course then again you might think with how long we lvie these days that itd be probally no problem to apply to this rule. Well idk what the answer is to that. I do know that i think its a stupid rule that needs to go away and die.
Of course maybe im jsut angry at cause of that stepsister thing but noonethless...
ik this isnt my best blog...but this rule fired me up...maybe when i get calmed down and can focus more ill come back and make it better. But for now thats all i have to say about this.
a Special blog About why or atleast some reasons why ive been depressed/unhappy lately
Now i felt the need to this because i know people maybe dont understand whats been going on with me lately. Well in a nutshell for the last week and a half as far as i remember or maybe even longer i have been down in the dumps, un happy, and lonely. Day after day and for some reason sleep (which btw usually helps me feel better) well it has not for some reason lately. So what has caused this well the number one answer i give is that i have no friends where i live. I should point out by that i mean of my own age and that i used to talk to all the time and grew up with.
So what do i think caused me to have no friends where i live. Well oddly enough im pretty sure i know why and well it is something that i would never want to change about myself. The reason is at least as far as i know because i came out as a loud and proud atheist.
Ok that is understood but you would think in any place there would surely be other atheists like me right? Well as far as i have seen and can tell the answer is no. No there are no other atheist my age where i live and grew up. How do i figure this? well there are more churches than i count where i live which makes it all christian. And well if your an atheist in all christian town then well its not hard to figure out that its just a recipe for disaster. BTW by disaster i mean a social life disaster. So im pretty much isolated.
But as far as isolation goes do they really deserve all the blame. Well no but they deserve at least some of it probably. But another reason im so isolated, and probably have no friends where i live is because i have failed to get my drivers at this point. Ah driving the one thought that im so afraid of. The one thing that well ik i have all the tools so to speak and know how to do but im so scared to do it. So what am i so scared of well when people ask me i say its the thought that one day i will have to drive all alone to places (which is funny considering im usally all alone at home during my periods off periods from college anyway). But does it go deeper than that. Maybe im no expert in psychology. What else could it be?
Well as far as a convo with a really good older friend and a mother revealed there are about two other things it could be but idk if one of em has anything to do with it. Maybe its because my dad put so much pressure on me to even get my learners that it has drove me away from getting my drivers (probally not considering it was his pressure that made me get my learners in the first place) so maybe what i need is alot of pressure on me and id fianlly get i. of course then i get so angry at times that i might lose alot of my family over it.
The second possibilty is that maybe i have an anexity problem and dont like getting out of my comfort zone and thats why i dont like driving and cant/wont get my drivers. Which could indirectly be leading to my unhappyness and stuff.
I thought going on this little rant if you will about dirving was important because its possible that maybe there are other athiests i could meet and be friends with where i lvie if i would jsut drive. Then again maybe though i doubt it there are some xtains (christians) who would accept me if i could get out and drive.
Anyway thats the reason i give people for why i have been so unhappy/depressed once again the reason is that i have no friends where i live who are my age or whom i grew up with. Is it cause of my athiesm or cause i dont drive? That is something i really dont know.
What are some other reasons?
-maybe depression is just something i have like the mental illness cause ive been battling it alot of my lfie atleast since i was a teenager.
-Maybe i aint been getting enough sleep cause i stay up till sometimes 2 oclock texting and on my phone.
-maybe its cause i am alone so much at home.
I really dont know. Im sure of one thing though i will make it through this and i will never give up. I made i through my dad dying when i was still in high school and made it through his death nd a house fire when i was still in high school. (i even got an award for my bravery the heart if a dragon award that my high school just happened to have started whne i was a senior).
And jsut to finish up im sry if i havent been as good a friend/best friend/bestie that i maybe could have been.
Anyway theres my explaintion? idk how good it is but anyway there it is.
-Jamie G.
p.s I cant help to add i made it through what happened while i was in hgih schol not cause some of some god watching over me and helping me get through it. I made it through it cause of my own courage and with help form family and at that time friends.
So what do i think caused me to have no friends where i live. Well oddly enough im pretty sure i know why and well it is something that i would never want to change about myself. The reason is at least as far as i know because i came out as a loud and proud atheist.
Ok that is understood but you would think in any place there would surely be other atheists like me right? Well as far as i have seen and can tell the answer is no. No there are no other atheist my age where i live and grew up. How do i figure this? well there are more churches than i count where i live which makes it all christian. And well if your an atheist in all christian town then well its not hard to figure out that its just a recipe for disaster. BTW by disaster i mean a social life disaster. So im pretty much isolated.
But as far as isolation goes do they really deserve all the blame. Well no but they deserve at least some of it probably. But another reason im so isolated, and probably have no friends where i live is because i have failed to get my drivers at this point. Ah driving the one thought that im so afraid of. The one thing that well ik i have all the tools so to speak and know how to do but im so scared to do it. So what am i so scared of well when people ask me i say its the thought that one day i will have to drive all alone to places (which is funny considering im usally all alone at home during my periods off periods from college anyway). But does it go deeper than that. Maybe im no expert in psychology. What else could it be?
Well as far as a convo with a really good older friend and a mother revealed there are about two other things it could be but idk if one of em has anything to do with it. Maybe its because my dad put so much pressure on me to even get my learners that it has drove me away from getting my drivers (probally not considering it was his pressure that made me get my learners in the first place) so maybe what i need is alot of pressure on me and id fianlly get i. of course then i get so angry at times that i might lose alot of my family over it.
The second possibilty is that maybe i have an anexity problem and dont like getting out of my comfort zone and thats why i dont like driving and cant/wont get my drivers. Which could indirectly be leading to my unhappyness and stuff.
I thought going on this little rant if you will about dirving was important because its possible that maybe there are other athiests i could meet and be friends with where i lvie if i would jsut drive. Then again maybe though i doubt it there are some xtains (christians) who would accept me if i could get out and drive.
Anyway thats the reason i give people for why i have been so unhappy/depressed once again the reason is that i have no friends where i live who are my age or whom i grew up with. Is it cause of my athiesm or cause i dont drive? That is something i really dont know.
What are some other reasons?
-maybe depression is just something i have like the mental illness cause ive been battling it alot of my lfie atleast since i was a teenager.
-Maybe i aint been getting enough sleep cause i stay up till sometimes 2 oclock texting and on my phone.
-maybe its cause i am alone so much at home.
I really dont know. Im sure of one thing though i will make it through this and i will never give up. I made i through my dad dying when i was still in high school and made it through his death nd a house fire when i was still in high school. (i even got an award for my bravery the heart if a dragon award that my high school just happened to have started whne i was a senior).
And jsut to finish up im sry if i havent been as good a friend/best friend/bestie that i maybe could have been.
Anyway theres my explaintion? idk how good it is but anyway there it is.
-Jamie G.
p.s I cant help to add i made it through what happened while i was in hgih schol not cause some of some god watching over me and helping me get through it. I made it through it cause of my own courage and with help form family and at that time friends.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Knowing Vs Believing
Now i feel the need to explain the difference between believing and knowing. Why do i feel this need because someone said to me today that they knew that i didnt believe prayer worked but they still prayed for my happyness anyway.
So what is believing? Well thahts a hard one. IMO beleving is taking something with no evidence yet to back it up (or if you claim there is evidence it isnt very good ie the bible for proving god exists).
Knowing is having all the evidence to back you up (ie knwoing the sun rises in the east and sets in the west)
Now athiests know prayer doesnt work there was even a study whcih you can find in a chapter of the god delusion that proved that.
Xtains/Religion bleieve that prayer works.
So plz the next time you use those words dont mess it up.
im keeping this one short cause im tired of writing but needed to clear that up.
thanks
-Jamie G.
So what is believing? Well thahts a hard one. IMO beleving is taking something with no evidence yet to back it up (or if you claim there is evidence it isnt very good ie the bible for proving god exists).
Knowing is having all the evidence to back you up (ie knwoing the sun rises in the east and sets in the west)
Now athiests know prayer doesnt work there was even a study whcih you can find in a chapter of the god delusion that proved that.
Xtains/Religion bleieve that prayer works.
So plz the next time you use those words dont mess it up.
im keeping this one short cause im tired of writing but needed to clear that up.
thanks
-Jamie G.
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